Got in such a bad fight wih my mum tonight.
Things are so tough at the moment. They have been for a while actually. Like really tough. Like working 20 hours a week for free because they can't afford to pay me. Like getting behind in all the bills. Like not being able to have a day off because they can't afford to pay someone to work for them.
It basically consisted of me yelling at her for getting angry at me because I didn't do something. I should have said sorry I didn't do it. But no... Instead I start to yell at her telling her that I work for free for her and that I have to get another job so I can start to save money and not have to ask them for money. I told her she had no right yelling at me. Who the hell am I to say that to my mother.
I get so angry. And it's not fair on my parents they are doing the best they can. Last week I told my mother I wanted a ps3 for Christmas. She said she couldn't afford it. I then had the hide to get angry because she couldn't afford it. I didn't stop to think that there were more important things about Christmas. I felt so amazingly ashamed of myself. There are people with nothing and here am I complaining because I don't get what I want. I then realized that I wasn't angry with her. I was angry with myself for getting angry at her. I am going to struggle this Christmas to buy gifts for people. I don't know how I'm going to afford it. It's so damn expensive.
I feel terrible. My parents do so much for me and I just yell at them. Kinda shameful.
