I Hope You're As Happy As You're Pretending.

Fairy pie is going home. Well... Not home... But back to where she is living at the moment.
I can honestly say I don't know what I am going to do. I feel like I am going around in circles. When she is here it all seems ok. It seems like she has faith in me and believes that everything will turn out ok. I don't know why but I do know that her not living here is depressing me. It seems like this past week I have spent more time with her than I have anyone else. I feel so comfortable around her. It's like finally someone who doesn't judge me for being me. Ever since M lost the weight she has changed. It's like she has turned into a whore. Nothing feels the same with her. She leaves next year. All my friends are leaving. Even the boys.
Being here makes me crazy. Apparently this is meant to be the time of my life. I would hate to think what my life ends up being like if this is the best it has to offer.
I want to travel. That's what I want to do. This is the only thing that I'm sure of. I don't quite know how to get there but I will. Flying seems like a good plan. Except it is so damn expensive. I wish I had rich parents. Everything would be so much easier.

We Are Made To Reach For The Stars

Sunrises have always seemed so beautiful to me. I view them as the beginning of a fresh start. Everything that happened yesterday doesn't matter anymore. Today is a new day and you have to live in the present. No point worrying about what you can't change.

Yesterday I went to my friends new house. She is living with one of our friends. So... I went over there and his nanna turns up. But first... I should probably mention that he has an awesome family and they are so nice and friendly it's amazing... anyway... so his nanna rocks up and we start talking about what I am going to do with my life... (on a side note I finally got my acceptance for deference next year!!! YAY!!!) It was awesome. Someone I didn't really know was helping me sort out my life. She gave me options to choose from and put new ideas into my head. I have to say it was great!!! Not only was it helpful it was funny. When his mum chimed in with the suggestion of becoming a nun we all had a good laugh.

I think I am going to look into being an air hostess or a pilot... because that would be amazing!!!
So just a shout out to one of the most amazing families and my lovely Fairypie who I love dearly. :)